little pieces

once in a while
i take a look around
just to make sure
just to be secure
no one's looking back
i don't think they've caught on

let me pull the trigger
to make him beg
to make me bigger

once in a while
she reads me a story
just to keep me alive
just to prove what i deny
everyone laughs at me
and the little pieces i live on

let me pull the trigger
to give me hope
to make me bigger

once in a while
we hear an old rumor
just to bind us
just to remind us
someone might understand
that's the only reason it goes on

let me squeeze the trigger
aim the barrel
cock the hammer
pull the gun
want to kill
let me want to kill

12.18.97
manic