what's harder than impossible?

there is no event no eventually no even
no no no it's all a mistake. it wasn't supposed to go down this way. I had it all planned out, new job, steady routine, then I meet the girl who tears me out of my skin again. it's not you. I'm not ready yet. and besides, I just wanted to start crushing, not have all this damn potential.

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a little piece of you just walked in my mind
like a bit of music I haven't heard in years
it seems familiar, but so far behind
catching up to me with each of my tears

I've been scared before, but not for this long
I've been alone before and that's not what hurts
every time I try it ends up all wrong
trying to ease the pain only makes it worse

the impossibility of being together
has got to be easier than being apart
just say the word and I'll love you forever
I'm just waiting for the music to start



manic