Apparently there was an October...

But I missed it. Flew by like a 747. Not that things didn't happen. I just don't have any interesting stories to tell. 

Things are really heating up now, though. Business is slow and money is tight. Time at work is getting like school as I try to learn six new computer programs all at once, making myself more "marketable" or something. And I don't have a pit in my stomach. I don't have a big empty hole where all the pain goes. I don't have any pain. There's no heartbreak (except for the tinge of hurt from being hung up on). Sometimes I wonder if there's even a heart anymore. Nobody gets to me. And now that doesn't even make me sad anymore.

All this ambivilance is really turning me off.

ha ha
manic