Tuesday

been looking from outside i've been watching 
but i don't know what to say
changed the old backdrop, same face 
but not who it used to be 

trying to get out not out getting 
thinking, you're everything you said you wouldn't be 
time out, i see right through 

you're running around again i'm around 
and still confused in an instant 
can't quite relate 
and i don't know what to say 
all of the bonds i see that i'm not part of 
it's not how it used to be 

you're running around again i'm around 
and i've been cracking on the inside 
it gets worse each day 
and i don't know what to say

keeping my distance but still i see 
it's not how it used to be 
pushing the time in a daze
wondering how it got this way 

time out, i've gotta ask it 
am i on my own? 

truth numbed my feelings



I'd be better off working. It's here, it's all here. Job, money, real life. Found a house, don't know if I can afford to live there. I have good friends, I love them. Can't always be the best friend. I wasn't this weekend. I let myself down a bit. There's so much more in my head. I'm not sure I can put it all out. There are things I can't communicate to just anyone. It's been so long since I've had someone in my arms. It's getting to me. I need sanctuary.

truth

manic