we must seek other words that mean as much as love
some level of respect, admiration, and commitment that falls in between liking and loving. move into the grey areas of passion and dedication. the small lines on the measuring stick.
or maybe I am just no longer capable of the big love I used to know. now I embrace all things casual. if I were more desirable I might lean toward the predatory side of dating. I'm a womanizer with no women. or not.
I believe I can still do it. fall in love.
i think i can ... i think i can ... i think i can
everlong
sometimes it does seem that way. I try and think maybe some kind of god will take care of things for me. then I remember that line in Unforgiven, "Deserve's got nothing to do with it"
gotta promise not to stop when I say when
i can't come up with what a woman would really mean to me. the right woman, or even the wrong one. if anything. last week seemed a good indication that i still long for someone. a thousand different someones every day. I'm too crush-weary to be specific. time hasn't done its job on every wound. I don't remember much, except that it felt right. every moment with her felt right.
and she sang
i'm anxious, and nervous, and making plans to take myself out of the game already. i hate playing games when it comes to this stuff anyway. i'll at least be the kind of man I feel good about. Life won't take that away from me again. even in moments of weakness I'll breathe in strength and understanding.
ob-la-fucking-dee
