No sense in worrying about it now. The tone and content of this diary may be undergoing serious changes soon.

It's 5 am. I am in a lobby at the Holiday Inn in Runnemede, NJ. Shortly I will be going back to the Federal Building in Philly for a physical exam to compliment the Armed Services Vocational Aptitude Battery test that I took yesterday. Still not sure I can go through with this. This morning, as I woke up, I experienced what I believe was a moment of absolute lucidity. I saw myself not being able to deal with military life any better than it could deal with me.

Today I joined the army.
I have no words.
Life will begin or end soon.