a man older than anyone would guess
sitting at his work bench
glasses perched precariously at the edge of a nose
that has smelled a billion smells,
exhaled a trillion trillion breaths
hunched over the pieces
the works of a watch that stopped
the second hand was muscle tissue from a heart
the hour hand diamond, but started as coal
the problem was the minute hand
it was a shark, and it didn't move enough
the master craftsman, some might say artisan
holds the tiny gears and springs on the tip
of every finger, placing them gently in their beds
consumed with the hunger of one day making it work
days without food, a week without sleep
his eyes have negotiated light for their health
and his concentration is never broken by the knocking
bed might as well be a coffin
if he can't make it work again
with each returned sprocket
(after careful and loving inspection)
the whole comes closer and closer to its revelation
but something complete is still a waste of time
if he can't make it work
finally the day comes
as the assembled bits of life, and viscera, and headstone
take their given places in the machine
traces of hope lubricate the gears
as he prays he can make it work
as all things, winding up
and only to be wound down
the tick is his eulogy
asleep forever, dreaming of a victory
but why couldn't we make it work?
manic
Opening Credits: Nose Over Tail - Alkaline Trio
Waking-Up Scene: Alive - Pearl Jam
Average-Day Scene: Chano - Lalo Schifrin
Best-Friend Scene: Mission Impossible Theme
First-Date Scene: I Will Be With You - The Mr. T Experience
Falling-In-Love Scene: Perfect World - Liz Phair
Love Scene: She's Got A Way - Billy Joel
Sex Scene: Sweet Honey - Born Jamericans
Heartbreak Scene: Pain - Negative Male Child
Break Up Scene: Bound To Pack It Up - White Stripes
Get-Back-Together Scene: Why Don't We Do It In The Road - The Beatles
Fight-With-Friend Scene: G.I. Joe Headstomp - Sick of it All
Fights-At-Home Scene: Institutionalized - Suicidal Tendancies
Mental-Breakdown Scene: I Want To Be Alone - SFA
Drugged Hiatus Scene: Set the Controls for the Heart of the Sun - Pink Floyd
Driving Scene: What the Hell - Hi-Fi & The Road Burners
Deep-Thought Scene: Your Time Is Gonna Come - Led Zepplin
Lesson-Learning Scene: Charlie Brown Theme - Vince Gurardi
'Life's Okay' Scene: Rainbow Connection - Me First & The Gimme Gimmes
Flashback Scene: Let's Hear it For the Boy - Deniece Williams
Party Scene: I against I - Mos Def & Massive Attack
Regret Scene: No One Said It Would Be Easy - Sheryl Crow
Slow-Dance Song: At This Moment - Billy Vera & the Beaters
Happy-Dance Song: East Side Beat - The Toasters
Long-Night-Alone Scene: Constellation - Sonny Stitt
Epic Triumph Scene: We Are The Champions - Queen
Death Scene: All Fall Down - Egg Hunt
Closing Credits: One Life, One Chance - H2O
so vanilla that it can't even be something looked forward to
or an aggressive push in the wrong direction
always 'you should have seen her'
never 'i'd like you to meet...'
even if it happens in little ways, like the right green light
where is the fucking victory in that?
every morning is a negotiation
if you can figure out why i lose, let me know
i can't tell the difference between
the moon and the sun it echoes
wasted time is a mind fuck invented by ex-
guidance counselors who founded sport drink companies
i can leave now. always could, i guess
but where the fuck am i gonna go anyway?
and who is riding shotgun?
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i thought i saw you tonight
through the soft haze of a saxophone
with the wrinkle in your nose from the
smile that always heals me
i thought i heard you tonight
over the conversation of a million glasses
with their full and empty lives to
talk about and digest
i thought i smelled you tonight
between the promises of jasmine
with its jolting sexuality to
inspire 3 pm saturdays
i thought i tasted you tonight
under the steely reserve of my tongue
with memories of an imaginary past to
protect me from the truth
i thought i touched you tonight
behind the stars that guide us
without realizing that the
mirror tells it like it is
i thought i touched you tonight
but you touched me
1. I am happiest when: sleeping
2. I feel lonely when: the ugly lights come on
3. The ideal relationship would be: full of trust
4. Favorite movie (s): Braveheart, Rushmore, Godfather II, Res.,etc.
5. Favorite author: Richard Brautigan
6. What makes you cry: Seeing someone else (who is strong) cry
7. Introvert or extrovert: Extrovert
8. Do you think too much: Never been accused of that before
9. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be: Ireland vs. right here in Jersey
10. A famous person you would like to meet: Salma Hayek
11. Do you believe in organized religion: Not for myself
12. Pro-life or pro-choice: pro-choice
13. Are you a vegetarian: No
14. Do you support the death penalty: I agree with it, just use the damn thing
15. Do angels or demons exist: Not like we think they do
16. What would you most like to be doing right now: Healing
17. Do you have any regrets: You could say that
18. Sex or love: Sexy love
19. Favorite coffee: Coca-cola
20. Brand of cigarettes: Smoking is the dumbest, most vile thing since pedo-necrophilia
21. Favorite scent: Spring
22. What REALLY makes you mad: Smoking, not accepting responsibility for one's actions, people who stop on exit/entrance ramps
23. Favorite way to waste time: sleeping
26. What is your best quality: I am easygoing
27. Are you currently in love/lust: no, and always
28. What's the craziest thing you have ever done: Joined the Army
30. Any bad habits: I'm terribly lazy, and too sarcastic, I guess both are habitual
31. Do you find it hard to trust people: I trust everyone, it's the devil inside them that I don't trust
32. Do you ever doubt yourself: No, but I second guess myself
33. Last book you read: The Liar's Tale
34. Last thing you bought for yourself: Me First & The Gimme Gimme's "Take A Break"
35. Bath or shower: I shower while laying in the tub, bath style
36. Favorite season: Spring
37. Porn or erotica: Depends on the situation
38. What is your favorite flavor: Chocolate
39. What is your favorite time of day: Night.
40. Gold or silver: Steel
41. What is the lamest pickup line someone has used on you: Never
42. Silk sheets or cotton: cotton
43. Any secret crushes: Setec Astronomy
44. Do you ever feel you are insane: no
45. Favorite style of music: punk vs. blues vs. jazz
46. Favorite film genre: drama
47. If you could be the opposite sex for one day, would you do it: sure
48. What do you desire most in life: peace of mind, to find love
49. Do you believe in destiny: No
50. Is world peace attainable: sure, once mankind is all dead
51. City or country: City
52. Are you more inclined to set short or long term goals for yourself?: Short term, long term, I'll never follow through so it doesn't really matter.
